The Bittersweet Transition from Baby to Big Brother

McCollum has been the baby of the family for 3.5 years, and I {shamelessly} take full responsibility for his neediness. He is the snuggliest, most affectionate little boy. I have truly been able to savor his "babyhood", especially with all the one-on-one time this past year, but I can't help but feel a twinge of guilt adding a new baby to the family. Will I be able to give all three the love and attention they each need? I worry how Mac's sensitive little heart will adjust to such a big change. But I know he will love his new little brother or sister and that this is just a right of passage for their relationship and ours. A sibling is a gift. I just need to get out of the way so Mac can blossom into his new role as Big Brother. 

A Letter to My 5 Year Old...

All birthdays are emotional for me-the gift of another year but also a gut-wrenching reminder of just how fleeting time is. 

Five years ago you made me a mama, and I instantly knew my purpose in this life. "Five" just seems so significant. The clumsy, spastic toddler stage has come and gone. You are so smart, but I don't want you to know that because it's a natural gift not something you've had to work for yet. You are bossy yet nurturing and so very independent. You've got your mama's sense of style, actually you have A LOT of your mama in you, which is both endearing and a bit worrisome. You are my constant sidekick in the kitchen and as girly as they come. You do things on your terms when you're ready. You love Jesus and can sing every word to your favorite worship songs. It still surprises me that we have actual conversations and you can express your thoughts so articulately. And most importantly, you love the Clemson Tigers. So often I just stop and stare, trying to freeze the moments in my memory so I can forever remember this season. 

I love you to the ends of the Earth, Finlay Harper and thank God every.single.day for the gift of you.

Love, Mommy

"I'm so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers"

Fall is for {Clemson} football, pumpkin everything, apple spice, hayrides, crackling fires, cool temperatures....fall is for traditions!