Thursday, January 18, 2018

"I'm so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers"

Fall is for {Clemson} football, pumpkin everything, apple spice, hayrides, crackling fires, cool temperatures....fall is for traditions!

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Baby 3

 Another baby has always been in the plan for our little family. And Lord knows I love a "plan". Something I did not plan for; however, is joining a club I had no interest in being a part of, or walking the devastating path that so many women have walked before. And it's impossible to acknowledge this precious little baby growing inside me without thinking of the baby we lost. We were in the midst of tragedy and thought a glimmer of light was shining through the darkest days we've ever faced, but instead the waters just continued to rise. 
In the days and weeks that followed, I managed to occupy every free minute. After all, life stops for nothing when you have 2 kids that rely on you for their every need. The grief continues to reveal itself in small ways as time goes on, but above all the whole experience left me with an even greater realization of what tremendous gifts fertility and motherhood are. My heart physically hurts for anyone facing those struggles. 
I blinked my eyes and we were pregnant again, but I wasn't prepared for the anxiety that accompanies a rainbow pregnancy. It was an utterly brutal first trimester with symptoms lasting weeks into the second. But somehow it quieted my anxious mind to "feel" this pregnancy so much-assurance that it was real. 
So here we are just about halfway through this pregnancy-happy, excited, full of anticipation {surprise gender!}, and

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Living the Dream

At least 5 times a day I stop in my tracks and think to myself, "How did I get so lucky?" Even when I'm drowning in tantrums and poop, even when I'm desperate for just 5 minutes to myself, and even when I've picked up that toy or wiped the counter for the millionth time that day, I think to myself this is all I ever wanted. More than anything, I feel like I have the gift of time-to sit down together at the table for every meal, prepare them healthy food, read that 2nd (or 10th) story, watch them discover the world, celebrate all of their little victories, and just love them. Finally, I'm not missing anything and I'm giving them the very best of me. And I hope someday they read this and know that being their stay-at-home-mom was my dream come true.  

The first annual Clarke Easter Egg Hunt!

I'm not at all obsessed with holidays or traditions! Just kidding. I live for them!! So this year we added an Easter Egg Hunt to our list of celebrations! 

Fun times with friends crafting, egg-hunting and candy-eating!

Monday, July 3, 2017

Finlay's 4th Ballerina Birthday

We celebrated our precious 4 (gasp) year old with a "Ballerina" themed party this March. This was her first year in dance class and she adores it. Go figure. Finlay has the sweetest group of friends from school, most of which have been together since the infant room. It's such a treat to watch them-the giggles & hilarious conversations...I was born to be a girl mom!

How have 4 whole years come and gone? Time is my worst enemy. And yet it is the most precious gift-every time I feel that ache in my heart thinking of how quickly life goes, I remind myself how immensely lucky I am to have the gift of another year. This first born child of ours is something special, if I do say so. She is smart, loving, and has an attitude that is strikingly similar to the one that has gotten me into a lot of trouble over the years. I just know she is going to do big things.

Hollow Creek Traditions

We found the most magnificent 10-footer this year at our local Christmas tree farm-Hollow Creek. Truly, I don't think we'll ever find a more perfect, full, symmetrical Christmas Tree! This much anticipated day-after-Thanksgiving tradition is one of my favorites & always supplies me with Christmas card worthy pictures!